Turning It Over...

I have to confess I am not the greatest at turning stuff over to God/dess. It's always a big deal when I do. I always turn people who seem dangerous to me over to God/dess, but I don't do it with the smaller stuff.

The serenity prayer: "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference." helps me a lot in knowing what I can and cannot change in my life. I know I cannot change other people. That doesn't prevent me from suggesting that they change, but I see no reason to nag anyone or pressure anyone into changing. That isn't quite the same thing as turning the situations over to God/dess though.

There are several situations in my life that could really use some "divine intervention..." I am concerned about several addicts and alcoholics that used to be in my life regularly. Most of the women who are actively using are also involved with bad men. I DO pray for them, but I haven't actually turned them over to God/dess.

Maybe this is because I don't really trust that my God/dess can do anything. It seems as if these women are standing in God and Goddess' way. I feel as if I LET God and Goddess help me, but I really had to be stopped from doing any more destruction first....

I haven't really had too many problems turning MY will and MY life over to the care of God and Goddess. Perhaps the trust I have established with my higher power can be taken to a higher place. I don't have a lot of stress in my life right now, and I know that can be attributed to my higher power at work in my life. Don't get me wrong, I do have problems, but I don't really stress over them. I just take steps to correct any problems that come up. I can only do what I can do.

I'm not sure HOW I should go about turning these situations over. I think tonight I will try to make up a little prayer for turning people and situations over to my higher power. It shouldn't be too much of a stretch of faith for me, really. God/dess seems to have taken care of my two children who I gave up for adoption. The situations they were born into were impossible, really.... and I was with bad men when they were born. I do remember asking for God's help with my children, and I got it.

My adopted mother is an alcoholic, I'm pretty sure. She's with a violent creep who married her after my biological mother passed away. I will pray for her, and turn it over to God and Goddess. I should know by now there is nothing I can do about it. My stepmother is with a pervert and is a drug addict. I think she has OCD. I will pray for her too and turn it over. She doesn't respect me enough to take advice from me. There's nothing I can do about that either.

There are several other people I know that need SOMETHING along the lines of divine intervention, and I am hanging on for dear life -- at least I am in my heart and mind. I really need to let it go and let God. I just don't want to give up on my loved ones. It's hard to let go of family, too. I just want it to get better, and me worrying about other people's safety isn't really doing ME any good.

Yes, tonight is a good night to turn it all over to my God and Goddess and see what happens.....